What happened to the liberal West Coast?

So I just stumbled across this stupid little article about those scary trans anarchists running amok in our "great country" messing everything up.


The face of an bomb throwing anarchist. I'd break windows with you Ariel!


I had been following blogs about the Denver Bash Back member arrested but only from very liberal sources and they didn't show the mug shot, giving a picture to the name. By the way, yay for Ariel Attack getting out of the slammer recently, jail is definitely no friendly place for trans people and ending up there is one of my biggest fears as a non-passing trans person. The article didn't catch my eye for the usual pronoun fuck ups that usually happen in the news (this guy even referred to Ariel as he amazingly) or the way anarchist or trans people are percieved by the righties, seen it enough now to not even care or be upset. The thing that caught my attention in this little article was this: "Denver appears to be eclipsing San Francisco and Seattle as the epicenter of the looney left." Yes I think Denver has eclipsed and surpassed San Francisco and possible left it behind. I cannot speak for Seattle as I have never been there but I now live in San Francisco and the thing that brought me here in the first place seems to have left a while ago.

It seems that the idea that San Francisco is a haven for liberals and an epicenter for radical action where tolerant for wierdness makes it a sort of utopia for freaks is now just an idea. That may have been true in the past before I lived here, I'm thinking the sixties hippy thing lasted in sentiment long after the actual movement ended. I'm sorry but San Francisco is not what people think it is anymore. We have been in a constant state of gentrification for some time and the yuppies are winning.

I had dreamed of living in this city my whole life. I grew up near the Bay Area and in my young tranny days came here to visit and hung out with the only other trans people I could find who seemed to all be in San Francisco. I strived to someday live here and be out and proud. As a non-passing trans-woman just living full time can be considered out and proud as stealth is not really an option. So, I finally moved here and started living full full time, as in working as a women too. That was the only thing I was not completely out as even though I had tits and dressed sorta fem. I was living like this because Santa Cruz, my former residence was as tolerant as I thought going there. In fact it was down right dangerous for trans people there as I was threatened before and had more than one altercation with aggressive transophobes. So after being disheartened by Santa Cruz I thought San Francisco would be more confortable. I suppose I was a little wrong. Yes, there are a lot of trans people here, probably more than most cities, but for those of us who do not pass there are plenty of other people, not trans, who feel obligated to harass, make fun of, threaten, stare at, and generally make the environment here not so friendly for trans poeple - at least ones that don't pass. I say that a lot because it seems to be the bane of my existance. Trans people who do pass will sometimes say things like, " people are coming around, I find people to be generally accepting of me." I just laugh at their passing privlidge and I say, "I find that people are trolls and can't help but to give me shit everywhere I go."

So back to my point, San Francisco is not so liberal as I thought it was and people think that this place is a safe haven for difference....Sorry but it is not. And, if this was the most liberal, safe, excepting place I could think of and moving here find its not then where do I have left to go? The dream of finding a safe place to call home is kind dead for me. Now I just work on my self rather than trying to adjust my environment as it is futile.

When I first noticed Bash Back I was like, "those are my poeple, I need to get involved." I watched as Bash Back chapters started forming all over the country and then one came here: Bash Back East Bay. I was so happy to see this and they had an initial meeting with a flier and everything but I had to work for the man that day and couldn't go to their first meeting. I waited for more meetings to come and emailed them to find out when other meeting are happening but then, nothing. I think the group disolved before it even began. I am not sure how other Bash Back groups are fairing in other locales but ours just didn't make it. Bummer. I am wondering if this has anything to do with the fact that San Francisco/Bay Area is not as liberal and crazy as everyone wants to believe it is? I have been trying to get involved with things here and have had a little trouble. I don't know if its just me and my shyness or this place is just not what I thought it was.

I found this funny little ranking survey which is from 2005 but could still be relevant to this post http://govpro.com/content/gov_imp_31439/ where it says that San Fran comes in at a cool 9th on the liberal scale. Most people would have guessed San Francisco to first or second or third but ninth? My state just upheald a ban on same-sex marriage by populare vote so maybe the West Coast is not liberal as we all thought. What is interesting about this survey is down on the conservitive ranking cities notice all the stuff down in Southern California. I think that's why we lost the vote in California.

It kinda sucks that I dreamed so long to find a safe haven, an oasis of wierdness where I could call home and just be myself without harrasment. That has not been the case and now I find myself getting shit every day for being trans but, its ok. If I wasn't forced to fight a battle everyday I would not be the fierce warrioress I am today and you know what they say? What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. So bring it on transophobe muthufuckers.....I dare you to fuck with me.

I'd totally live in that house

This house caught my eye online and now I totally know what my dream house will look like.
http://www.designboom.com/weblog/cat/9/view/3534/diy-architecture.html
It's like a total Steampunk building and I love how its so haphazardly built and looks like its made of old fence boards. This is why I love Russians, in San Francisco I've noticed a few haters towards the Russians probably due the high Russian population here (there's always some haters). I had an ex who was an SF local who absolutely hated them and we would always argue about how I thought she was racist towards Russians and she would always say Russian isn't a race. I just love them because a lot of them are so crazy. I mean look at this house. What's also so crazy is that he was aloud to actually make this far in the build. I guess building codes and inspectors are not quite the same in Arkhangelsk as here in the US. Here they are on your ass just for adding a little tiny structure onto your house. It would be quite nice if one could just build to one's heart's content anyway they see fit to live. If it falls down and collapses on you then you deserve it for being a shitty builder.

The only thing I would add to this house is some stone work and maybe to seal the Steam Punk look some copper facings, steal girders with little riveted cross braces like the Eiffel Tower, and maybe some external plumbing all over the thing to make it look even more creepy.

Honey, grab the kids....their coming!!

I am reporting here as a diligent observer not for any grandeur establishment but as an autonomous entity who considers this work to be her civil duty. Sometimes I feel that transsexuality is a curse that my soul must endure as some kind of punishment for an unfortunate misdeed committed in a past life but then I remember that this curse can be turned around and seen as a gift rather, that allows me to observer things and see things in a way that "normals" just can not see. It gives me a smug sense of entitlement watching these poor, misguided citizens of mainstream society toil on with their empty lives, thinking this is it. I feel privileged to know I am beyond them, not because I'm so cool or hip, which I am not, but because they exclude me from their way of life. They don't want me to be part of their civilization and I don't want anything to do with their pathetic way of life, so I will content myself with observing them and ripping on them. Besides harking on dumb asses I will also be looking for really cool technology that folk engineers, scientists, and tinkerers are coming up with and talk about why it is so fucking cool. Bicycles are really cool too and since I ride mine everyday I will probably talk about them or the adventures to be had on them at some point as well.

So, today I was standing in line to get some garbage food, which I sometimes indulge upon, just minding myself when I noticed the lady in front of me in line giving me the usual, "ewe, a scary tranny person" look which I'm totally used to by now as I don't really pass all that well, but what she did next I haven't seen in a while. She looked at me with disgust and then scooped her arm around her boy child pulling him closer and kept her arm around him. I have seen this happen with me a few times, the worst being in a woman's bathroom when a woman in there saw me trying to use the bathroom as a threat to her teenage daughter and she literally put herself between me and her daughter as a way to protect her from my dirty queerness.

I always find it so amazing how poeple think we are perverts and sexual deviants when in fact I would have say that straight men are the true perverted menace in our society. People half hazardously leave their children with these straight guys all the time not thinking that anything is wrong with them but think queers are disgusting pervs. Actually, most of us have already explored the deep dark depths of our sexuality and done some thinking on it and come to some conclusions about it. A lot of straight guys are afraid to go to these places for fear of being gay, a major problem among the mainstreamers, and so instead hold all of these strange sexual ideas in their heads, interpolating them alone and in secret. Some of the perversions that dance around in these guys heads I am even scared of and I'm a pervert in my own right. So, I am way way way more reluctant to leave my child around "the average straight guy" than any queer I know. The only reason I am going out on a limb to say this is because I spent a good deal of my life, living as a straight man and know the kind of fucked up perversions that go through a dudes head. Keeping these creepy thoughts rolling around in their heads without any kind of outlet or discussion and a sense of shame for them being there in the first place is only a breading ground for a potential problem.

So families out there who are afraid of me and my kind, do not worry. We will not hurt your children. Rather, you should be careful around uncle Bob or your good friend Hubert or your sister's boyfriend who is really sweet, she swears he is cause he says so. They are the ones that usually end up in the headlines committing hanus shit. Their minds are going in places you don't even want to know. Trying to protect your kids from me is a waste of time, I will not hurt them but dude bro might. He's the one you should be sheilding your kids from.